Letting Go and Acceptance

Welcome to my new blog, Getting Me back.

This blog is vastly different from Monsters Ed and all about me and my journey back to myself. This blog will hopefully evolve as I do. This blog will not be as active as Monsters Ed as these post are going to be hard to write and even harder to publish. My hope is that this blog will help and inspire others who are stuck in a loop like me, to find their way out.

This past year has taught me to love myself and letting go of the person I was and thought I was meant to be. This is my journey to self-love (harder than one might think), my struggle with depression and anxiety, dealing with my past, putting my relationship with my husband first, working on being the best mother I can be and making lasting, real relationships with my family and friends. Tall order, no? Oh yes, life isn’t easy and living a full, healthy life is even harder!
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I know “Let It Go” from Frozen is probably the most hated Disney song in the history of movie sound tracks, but listening to the lyrics has always brought tears to my eyes and occasionally the ugly cry.

I have realised this year that I have held on to way too much, for lack of a better word, stuff from my past and it has held me back from being the person I truly am, whoever that may be. This realisation hit me hard a few months ago and I started making small changes to myself.

When I became a stay at home mother 9 years ago, I let myself go physically. I stopped dressing nicely (ie anything other than ratty old shirts hubby no longer wears and PJ pants or an old pair of shorts), doing my hair and makeup and just generally let my appearance go. There is no good reason for it, other than laziness. Oh my hat, that was hard to admit.

I recently started going once a month to have my nails done, without the kidlets! What a difference that one small detail has made to my confidence. I went and spent 3 hours getting my hair cut and coloured at a professional hair salon for the first time and let them pamper me the entire time (this is something I will be doing once every 2 months). I even started wearing makeup every time I leave the house. Make up is not something our circle of friends have ever seen me wear. I have slowly started buying cloths that actually fit and are pretty. I have had a few people ask me if I’m having an affair, THAT’S how drastic these 3 little changes have made an impact on my appearance. This bugged me terribly in the beginning and I usually had a snarky response. It took me a time, or six, to realise that this was, in actual fact, a complement and that people were not being serious. The reason for my initial reaction will, most probably, come out at some point.

Thank you for stopping by. I’ll be posting as often as is possible.

Much love….

  • Love your new blog! And a great title. I think I have been letting myself go a bit and it’s amazing how colouring my hair and painting your nails can make myself feel so much better.

    • Thanks Heather 🙂 Amazing how one little thing can make you feel 100 times better!

  • Chevone Petersen

    Wishing you all the best on your journey of courage and self acceptance. I know it is very difficult to to things for YOU when for years all the doing has been for everyone else.

    • Thank you. Acceptance may be the hardest milestone, but I’m going to do it 🙂

  • Rolene

    So honest and inspiring. Looking forward to join you in this journey.

    I think it is “easy” for mothers to forget to spend some time and money on ourselves

    • Isn’t that the truth. We forget that we are what our children look up to, if we don’t look after ourselves, they won’t.

  • Hello Jo, Well done for writing and driving your story, it is not easy to do but I thin you will get it right girl. One step at a time you will get there

  • CW

    Bless you for your honesty – looking forward to being inspired by your journey <3